Something I played with a little while ago. Here's the blurb:
Brendon
moved in with his grandmother shortly after she bought a new condo. Being her
last name was different from Brendon’s, and Brendon’s name wasn’t on the lease,
it made the perfect hiding place. Sure, it was a coward’s way out of an abusive
and loveless relationship, but Brendon has never been brave. Plus, it isn’t
only Lyman he’s running from. Brendon has a secret few know about. Bravery for
him is simply getting up in the morning and facing the day.
Take
his grandmother’s next-door neighbor, for instance. The man was huge. Brandon
knew he was joking when he complained about “losing his job” as his
grandmother’s handyman due to Brendon’s arrival. But the guy was towering over
him in that particular moment and Brandon nearly peed his pants. However, when
Brandon saw the kind of collection the man had in his apartment peeing his
pants was really the least of his worries. He was convinced his grandmother
lived next door to a terrorist.
But
getting to know Victor was easier and far more pleasant than Brendon thought it
could be. Kind, patient, gentle and funny, Victor began to steal Brendon’s
fears away ―along with his heart. With a little meddling from an old lady ―
okay, a lot of meddling ― Brendon finds himself in Victor’s arms and in
love.
Unfortunately,
Brendon’s secret might just tear that new and fragile love completely apart.
And when Lyman shows up to make sure Brendon’s new love is aware of
it, Brendon isn’t sure the arsenal a pissed off Victor has will be used to
protect him ―or kill him.
And here are the first few pages.
Brenden
pressed end on his phone and took a last look around his now very empty
apartment. He was shocked how little time it had actually taken to clear
it all out. He was grateful to have found homes for most of his things;
the rest had been hauled out by the Salvation Army. The only thing he was
taking with him; a barrowed suitcase and a few boxes, all but one of which were
jammed in the back of his friend, Lisa's, SUV.
He
had no real time left, Lisa had wanted to be on the road two hours ago, always
fearful Lyman would show up. But he still
took a moment to walk the small rooms one more time. Just to make sure I left nothing behind, he told himself. But
of course it was a lie. He knew there was nothing at all in any of the
space. There was debris, maybe a stray item here and there, Lisa had
friends coming over momentarily to clean now that they were done. But
anything of his life here, the long, long year he had spent here? No, nothing.
Lots
of memories. Some not so good. He
supposed he would take those with as well.
He
had told the landlord if there was any damage deposit left it belonged to Lisa,
her address the only one he gave him. She had been a true blessing in all
of this. With her support – well – badgering was more the word to use, he
had been able to make the break. He knew it was cowardly to do this when
Lyman was out of town but he also knew he would never have been able to leave
any other way. Lyman would never have
let him. And this way Lyman would never find
him. That was important.
He
had just hung up from his grandmother on his mother’s side, letting her know he
was finally on his way. A different city, a different life. Since
he was moving in with her his name would not be on any lease so there was no
address for anyone to find. Since he was an EBook author full time now he
could do his work from anywhere and anywhere away from Lyman was where he was
going to be. Thankfully his grandmother had also just moved from her cute
little house to a condo. It was just added security. However, since Lyman had never asked about Brenden’s
past, he never knew Brenden’s grandma even existed so there really was no
problem. Still, it felt good to know she
was basically untraceable. Which would make Brenden invisible.
He
stood in the bedroom of that shabby apartment looking down at the carpet stain
he was never able to get out, a faded mark now, tannish in color, a combination
of blood and coffee, faint but noticeable.
It would most likely still cost him some of that deposit. He slowly moved his head side to side,
reliving the incident, which happened pretty much right after he met
Lyman. He shivered and touched his
fingers lightly to the scar on the left side of his face from the thrown coffee
mug. Every time he thought of that occasion he would always imagine
hearing his mother saying “an inch over
and it would have put your eye out”.
Fuck,
he missed her.
But
Lyman hadn’t really been aiming at
him that morning or at least that was
the story Lyman told. Sure he had been
angry at something Brenden had said…or done. Oddly enough he couldn’t remember
that particular detail. But Lyman had frantically assured him afterward he simply
slipped and Brenden had been in the way.
A trip to the hospital and six stitches later Brenden was back scrubbing
at that stain, tears streaming down his face because Lyman had left a note
saying it was “fucking over” and “you’re a fucking cunt” and other
horrible things Brenden evidently chose at the moment to forget as well. Lyman
was gone. In thinking about it now, it
would have been good if the asshole had stayed
gone. But of course he didn’t. He was back late the next day, sufficient
time for Brenden to freak out but not enough time to think he was much better
off without him. The idiot Brenden was
at the time had only been happy to see him.
It was easy to go along with that story, easy to accept there would be
no real apology, only a whisper from Lyman that it would never happen
again. Wasn’t that apology enough? Sure, it didn’t explain the offensive note
but Brenden could easily forget about that too.
And
had it been the only time something like that happened it would have been forgettable.
However
back then even Lyman was still sensitive to some
things. He never said the words but Lyman apologized for days afterwards
by coming over early to take Brenden to work, taking him out to lunch and
dinner, even surprising him a couple of times with a single rose laying on his bed.
But it hadn’t taken long for Lyman to end up believing his own shit because the
story went from Lyman slipping and Brenden being in the way to Brenden’s
clumsiness that was to be held responsible.
Lyman even went as far as to suggest he should move in with Brenden, to
keep him safe, as if what happened to him had nothing to do with Lyman at
all. It really should have raised a red flag – or twelve. But it
didn't.
And it got steadily worse.
It
became apparent that Lyman intended Brenden be placed in a bubble, to be taken
out at only Lyman’s discretion and choice.
There were just too many perverts and homophobes out there who had it in
for either Lyman himself or Brenden by way of wanting to kidnap, rape or
maim. The act of a simple greeting would
have Lyman accusing Brenden of flirting “embarrassingly
like a fucking whore”.
But
he put up with all of it. Until the rape. That was the last straw.
He
had been thinking about simply ending it with Lyman, had even tried to on
several occasions. But Lyman would do one of several things.
The first number of times, Lyman “fell apart” and begged Brenden to stay with
him, swore he would change, he would go to counseling, read self-help books,
anything to keep Brenden from walking away. And to his credit, he did hold
up his end of each bargain… but only to a point. For a good month the man worked hard at
his anger, at his obsession over Brenden, his insane jealousy.
But there was always some hot guy out there no matter where they went,
that was either ogling at Brenden or Brenden himself was
looking at him. It had been somewhat gradual but it got to a point
where Brenden and Lyman never went out together anymore because Brenden just
didn't want to deal with it. As a couple it was easier if they just
stayed in. Brenden wasn’t sure when that
also translated into Brenden himself always
staying in.
The
downward spiral after that wasn't all that slow though. Once Lyman had Brenden
convinced going outside for fun was a mistake he started to work on Brenden's
job. He would grill Brenden on his day, not because he was interested in
conversation but more in who it was that was after Brenden’s ass. There had to be someone. Brandon would even catch Lyman checking Brenden's
messages, texts, and emails, all in an effort to "protect" Brenden.
At one point he insisted Brenden quit that job and come work where Lyman
worked so Lyman could keep an eye out for him.
Brenden
knew how crazy Lyman could get so usually he would evade the subject, change it
or say he would think about it. But he had no intention of leaving where
he worked.
Then
Brenden had a break. His seventh ebook did enormously well. He
was commissioned to write a sequel and the deadline made it impossible to keep
his job. Lisa freaked when she heard. It was when her friendly
support turned into harassment to leave Lyman. She had seen
the bruises. She knew abuse when she saw it and she was frightened he
would hole up in the apartment and the only person who would ever see him again
was Lyman. It was all a ploy on his part
to keep Brenden all to himself. The man
was fucking crazy.
Yes.
He was fucking crazy. But he also knew what Brenden was. Not only that but he
knew what Brenden had done, had seen it. Oh yes, Lyman witnessed the change and then what happened after. And that
was a huge problem.
“Want me to tell the police, Brenden?
I will, you know. You walk out that door and you’re as good as fucking dead.
Worse yet, they’ll lock you up, boy. Fucking throw away the key. You understand
me? I will tell everyone what you did. What you do! You leave me, Brenden, and
that’s what I’ll do.”
But
now it was over. Lyman was out of town for a few days for a business
seminar his job held every year for the higher ups of the company. Employees
only. As hard as he tried to figure out a way to bring Brenden with, he
couldn’t, and Lisa took that opportunity to force Brenden's hand. She
handled everything, from the doling out of his furniture to lining up the Salvation
Army to pick up the rest. From the pizza and beer party for the people who
hauled everything out of the apartment in a matter of two days to making a sole
trip to his grandmother’s house to make sure that end was ready as well. She had
been a whirlwind of energy. All Brenden
had to do was to pack what he could absolutely not live without.
Surprisingly,
there just wasn’t all that much.
Oh,
he was well aware of Lisa's many covert calls to his grandmother over the last
several weeks leading up to Lyman’s trip and between the two of them they were
able to convince him he needed to move to his grandmother's new
condo. She had lived there all of two months herself, having just sold
her home. Certainly the fact she resided in a city two plus hours away
was very attractive.
Brenden had taken Lyman's phone calls off and on through the few days he was gone.
Oddly, yet thankfully, there hadn’t been that many. Brenden still kept them light though, knowing
Lyman could sometimes seem to read his mind.
Brenden hadn’t even really slept in the last three days knowing Lyman
would somehow figure out what was going on and he would be on the
next flight home to stop him. But it would have still been too late
because the day Lyman left town Lisa had swooped in with her team of
friends and cleaned out his apartment in nothing flat. And now, on
the day before Lyman was due to return, Brenden was already gone.
Brenden
sighed and walked back to the entry door. He picked up the last box,
threw his apartment key on the kitchen counter and walked out, closing that
door physically and mentally for the last time.
